Friday, August 28, 2015

So...I was sick last night...

No need to divulge all the details, let's just say it's not the kind of sick anyone would choose. Tyler was there for me, making me feel loved the whole while. He purchased me medicine that I didn't think to buy for myself. He fed me delicious Buffalo wings and blue cheese dressing he had made the night before. (The ONLY leftovers I do not mind eating one bit!) Then I wrapped myself up in his blue comforter, burrito style and he played a video game a few feet away while we watched Rocky II. Eventually, he joined me on the couch and I fought sleep so I could be present around him a little longer.

Perhaps some of you won't understand why this would make me so happy, but it did. Perfect, homey intimacy, the kind I want the rest of my life. The kind I've wanted my whole life. Whether or not I should admit this is neither here nor there. When I was younger, I would lie the couch by myself and pretend there was a man just out of my line of vision who would join me in a minute. That delusion comforted me. Now, with Tyler, I don't have to pretend anything anymore. He will join me on the couch in a few minutes.

I am grateful to have such a wonderful, handsome, loving man care for me. All of me--my heart, my mind, my soul, and my body. I love him and I will never stop being grateful.

Sunday, August 23, 2015

Jordyn Loves Tyler

I, Jordyn Alice Auvil, do declare, publicly and proudly, that I love Tyler Christopher George. I have never loved anyone before him and had no notion of what love really was until he came into my life one March day. No one has made me feel more beautiful, wanted, desired, adored, cherished, and loved than he has. I never knew such feelings were capable of being directed towards me, but Tyler has shown me the way. He has shown me what real love is and all that it should be. And I love him equally.

Before him, I was lost. I had been fighting my true nature (that of a sensitive person with much love to give) and chose to be someone I didn't really care for, but someone who could survive this crass, cold world alone. I had given up on Love (yes, capital L Love) and my ideas of romance before I met Tyler. But with his persistence and genuine interest in me, my walls came down and I realized, "YES, someone CAN really love me. YES, I do deserve this. And he deserves all my love in return." Tyler brings out the best in me. He saw the good person I am, the loving woman I could be, and had the patience to see me realize it too. When I falter, Tyler is there to remind me of my worth. I will forever be thankful. I will forever love him.

Tyler deserves more to be written about him, but I am anxious to be at his side. I feel like I'm already there. He is never far from my thoughts and always in my heart. I love him. I love him. I love him.