Dear Tyler,
Hello again, via this blog. In this post, I'm going to share a few things I've been mulling over lately, about me, about us, etc. For whatever reason, I don't really like actually talking about deeper things, but as long as I communicate with you through some medium, it counts. So hello there. :-) I think about stuff often enough--usually at work because I am so unstimulated there--but once I am home and with you, it just doesn't seem "relevant" anymore. I don't want to self-reflect at home; I want to be with you and relax.
So, here's something I want to get out of the way: it sucks that you were the one who gave me the wake up call I needed. Not only did you have to do all that unpleasant holding up of mirrors, you saw and heard some ugly shit. I apologize from the bottom of my heart. If I could have any wish, it would be to go back to March 20, 2015 and meet you as I am now. Or, you know, relive my entire life just so I didn't waste so much of it. I wish you didn't know what I used to be.
But we don't live in a world where such a thing is possible. So here we are on January 19, 2017 and things continue to improve within me. I am stronger than I've ever been. Most of that comes from self-confidence. You may not give a shit if Grover Cleveland married a 21 year old when he was President. But I find that interesting. I like knowing things even if they don't matter. Good for me. I am awesome. You know that 1 fruit and 1 milk equals a muffin. Good for you. You are awesome. We are who we are and we rock, separately and together.
Yesterday: I forgot about the decluttering book. In fact, I forgot there was a time when I went through all my things and tossed 85% of them. Did I really have that much stuff? Yes. And I don't miss it. It's sort of ridiculous what a stink I made and now I couldn't name half of what I got rid of. How can I not remember my own life? Because it doesn't feel like that was my life. I know it was, but it doesn't feel like it. There's a distinct difference. I am so much happier now. And not just happy, also calm. Life doesn't have to be dramatic to be worth living.
I want you to know I am working on myself. I like that I am doing it myself and not because you are urging me to. I am taking steps forward. Thank you for walking beside me.
Thursday, January 19, 2017
Sunday, January 1, 2017
On the Twelfth Day of Christmas, My True Love Gave to Me...
A MINI keychain!
Marge is my true Christmas present, so it seems fitting that my last gift this year be something to adorn her key, which is that round thing with the buttons, by the way. So futuristic! I was using a random keychain I used to keep my spare keys on, so an upgrade was appreciated. This keychain is heavy duty and the wings are sharp as hell, which means I could use it for self-defense if needed,
It was a fun 12 days, and I got some awesome loot. But the greatest gift of all was getting to spend a second holiday season with Tyler and continuing a tradition that celebrates how well we know each other.
Thank you, Tyler, for a wonderful Christmas. Can't wait til next year, Babe!
Marge is my true Christmas present, so it seems fitting that my last gift this year be something to adorn her key, which is that round thing with the buttons, by the way. So futuristic! I was using a random keychain I used to keep my spare keys on, so an upgrade was appreciated. This keychain is heavy duty and the wings are sharp as hell, which means I could use it for self-defense if needed,
It was a fun 12 days, and I got some awesome loot. But the greatest gift of all was getting to spend a second holiday season with Tyler and continuing a tradition that celebrates how well we know each other.
Thank you, Tyler, for a wonderful Christmas. Can't wait til next year, Babe!
On the Eleventh Day of Christmas, My True Love Gave to Me...
The No. 7 Perfect & Protect Skincare Trio!
So remember how I mentioned that I was obsessed with skincare? Yeah. Ever since I heard of No. 7 (the UK's most popular skincare brand), I have been interested in trying it. This trio includes an eye cream (always on the hunt for a good one), a serum (this is apparently the Holy Grail of drugstore serums) and a day cream. I have since tried all three--at night time because I just couldn't wait--and am impressed with all three. Once I run out of my current eye cream and day serum, these are the ones I will cycle in. I really like the texture of the day cream but don't really like the idea of a moisturizer with an SPF. (I feel it's like using a 2-in-1 shampoo and conditioner...a definite no-no.) Instead, I'm going to use it as a night cream because it feels that rich.
Thank you, Tyler, for feeding my skincare obsession further! :-)
So remember how I mentioned that I was obsessed with skincare? Yeah. Ever since I heard of No. 7 (the UK's most popular skincare brand), I have been interested in trying it. This trio includes an eye cream (always on the hunt for a good one), a serum (this is apparently the Holy Grail of drugstore serums) and a day cream. I have since tried all three--at night time because I just couldn't wait--and am impressed with all three. Once I run out of my current eye cream and day serum, these are the ones I will cycle in. I really like the texture of the day cream but don't really like the idea of a moisturizer with an SPF. (I feel it's like using a 2-in-1 shampoo and conditioner...a definite no-no.) Instead, I'm going to use it as a night cream because it feels that rich.
Thank you, Tyler, for feeding my skincare obsession further! :-)